Here's something new for this blog...

Positing two days in a row! 

(Well, at least I think it's new.)

Anyhow, I'm in a one table SnG right now, and I hopefully will play some tournaments later in the day. 

Later that day...

Well, got myself into a $22 tournament with, right now, 186 entrants but that will more than double over the next hour.  I'll report hands as they come along if interesting at all, and the result...

Okay, this happens...just sucks when it happens, but anyhow...folds around to me, I have QTo, I raise it from the button, and I'm called by T7o. 

Flop gives me 2nd pair with the Ten, but when checked to me, I check as well. 

Turn gives him two pair, Tens and Sevens, and he leads out with a bet of about 3/4 of the pot, and I call with just the T. 

River is another T giving me three of a kind, but him a boat, and he checks.  I bet 1/4 of the pot, and he ships his stack, and I call. 

Here's how it should have played:

Bet 3/4 of the pot on the flop (or more).  He may fold, but let's assume he calls.  Turn gives him two pair, and he most likely would check thinking I'd bet again.  He checks, I check. 

River comes, and I'm not sure what he'd do.  I would THINK he would bet hoping I was thinking he would steal it.  Maybe he checks again, but I'd bet with 3 of a kind.  When he ships it...I probably call there too.  So, I'm most likely losing chips here no matter what.  I probably don't need to lose my whole stack though. 

I'm completely fine with the pre-flop raise because first to act from the button with QT is fine, IMO.

100/200 $10,000 GTD, Table 9 (Hold'em)
Seat 8 is the button
Seat 1: Loki1623 (8500).
Seat 2: RivertheWin (10159).
Seat 3: dowork14 (13754).
Seat 4: TACOENGINEER (4849).
Seat 5: Sarim19 (5405).
Seat 6: buBBle_u_UP (3824).
Seat 7: HUfunplayer1 (3180).
Seat 8: glenmawr70 (6103).
Player Loki1623 ante (20)
Player RivertheWin ante (20)
Player dowork14 ante (20)
Player TACOENGINEER ante (20)
Player Sarim19 ante (20)
Player buBBle_u_UP ante (20)
Player HUfunplayer1 ante (20)
Player glenmawr70 ante (20)
Player Loki1623 has small blind (100)
Player RivertheWin has big blind (200)
Player Loki1623 received a card.
Player Loki1623 received a card.
Player RivertheWin received a card.
Player RivertheWin received a card.
Player dowork14 received a card.
Player dowork14 received a card.
Player TACOENGINEER received a card.
Player TACOENGINEER received a card.
Player Sarim19 received a card.
Player Sarim19 received a card.
Player buBBle_u_UP received a card.
Player buBBle_u_UP received a card.
Player HUfunplayer1 received a card.
Player HUfunplayer1 received a card.
Player glenmawr70 received card: [Qh]
Player glenmawr70 received card: [10s]
Player dowork14 folds
Player TACOENGINEER folds
Player Sarim19 folds
Player buBBle_u_UP folds
Player HUfunplayer1 folds
Player glenmawr70 raises (530)
Player Loki1623 folds
Player RivertheWin calls (330)
*** FLOP ***: [Jd 10h 3c]
Player RivertheWin checks
Player glenmawr70 checks
*** TURN ***: [Jd 10h 3c] [7h]
Player RivertheWin bets (800)
Player glenmawr70 calls (800)
*** RIVER ***: [Jd 10h 3c 7h] [10c]
Player RivertheWin checks
Player glenmawr70 bets (730)
Player RivertheWin allin (8809)
Player glenmawr70 allin (4023)
Uncalled bet (4056) returned to RivertheWin
------ Summary ------
Pot: 12426. Rake 0
Board: [Jd 10h 3c 7h 10c]
Player Loki1623 does not show cards.Bets: 120. Collects: 0. Loses: 120.
*Player RivertheWin shows: Full House (10/7) [7s 10d]. Bets: 6103. Collects: 12426. Wins: 6323.
Player dowork14 does not show cards.Bets: 20. Collects: 0. Loses: 20.
Player TACOENGINEER does not show cards.Bets: 20. Collects: 0. Loses: 20.
Player Sarim19 does not show cards.Bets: 20. Collects: 0. Loses: 20.
Player buBBle_u_UP does not show cards.Bets: 20. Collects: 0. Loses: 20.
Player HUfunplayer1 does not show cards.Bets: 20. Collects: 0. Loses: 20.
Player glenmawr70 shows: Three Of Kind of 10s [Qh 10s]. Bets: 6103. Collects: 0. Loses: 6103.
Game ended at: 2018/5/27 19:5:34

So, I'll play one more buy in...will report on hands in a bit...

I actually don't have the hand, but it was bad...basically I thought what the heck when someone was all in, and went all in with them because I was down to 8000 after having 12000.  Sound irrational?  Because it is.  

Anyhow, what I'm feeling is this...the three first place finishes in tournaments brought my Sharkscope graph up out of negative.  It wasn't too far down, however, it as nice to be positive.  

Now with the past few days including two $20 buy ins today, it's right back down.  Granted, I have only about $30 less than what I started the day with yesterday (I had won money in a cash game), but on the graph it looks like a $100 nosedive.  

So, typically, I'd get in a cash game right now.  

Not happening.  

Can you imagine...

I actually found this blog again.  I had completely forgotten it! 

This is 5/26/2018, and the last blog was 11/03/2011. 

But, really, that was me finding it like four years after losing it again.  Well, whatever...let's get to it. 

This is a poker blog, I still like poker, and, well, I still suck at it. 

Although....although....

I have gotten three first place finishes in one week just this week!

And, AS I'm writing this I am SERIOUSLY donking off in a $20 tournament with reentry.  Am I on tilt?  Am I nuts?  I'm on my third buy in because I'm playing with an incredible amount of tilt, and I have no real reason why. 

Eh...I'm not going to cry over it.  What's done is done, what's spent is spent, and on this third buy in, if I just get back to what was getting me to do well recently which is mostly just simplifying my game, not playing TOO many hands out of position, betting at pots if I think I can get them, getting out if I think I can't.  Value towning people that can be value towned. 

Example of a donkish hand I actually won:

Game started at: 2018/5/26 20:44:58
$2,000 GTD Superstack,
Seat 9 is the button
Seat 1: Bluffseed (19991).
Seat 2: glenmawr70 (19080).
Seat 3: Ten5pirit (23946).
Seat 4: sloppydrnkpshngbttns (19515).
Seat 5: BigUnit14 (18675).
Seat 6: Four2Eight (19225).
Seat 9: HOGSACK (17432).
Player Bluffseed has small blind (20)
Player glenmawr70 has big blind (40)
Player Bluffseed received a card.
Player Bluffseed received a card.
Player glenmawr70 received card: [3c]
Player glenmawr70 received card: [5s]
Player Ten5pirit received a card.
Player Ten5pirit received a card.
Player sloppydrnkpshngbttns received a card.
Player sloppydrnkpshngbttns received a card.
Player BigUnit14 received a card.
Player BigUnit14 received a card.
Player Four2Eight received a card.
Player Four2Eight received a card.
Player HOGSACK received a card.
Player HOGSACK received a card.
Player Ten5pirit folds
Player sloppydrnkpshngbttns folds
Player BigUnit14 raises (115)
Player Four2Eight folds
Player HOGSACK calls (115)
Player Bluffseed folds
Player glenmawr70 calls (75)
*** FLOP ***: [8h 5d 6c]
Player glenmawr70 checks
Player BigUnit14 checks
Player HOGSACK bets (365)
Player glenmawr70 calls (365)
Player BigUnit14 folds
*** TURN ***: [8h 5d 6c] [3d]
Player glenmawr70 checks
Player HOGSACK allin (16952)
Player glenmawr70 calls (16952)
*** RIVER ***: [8h 5d 6c 3d] [3h]
------ Summary ------
Pot: 34999. Rake 0
Board: [8h 5d 6c 3d 3h]
Player Bluffseed does not show cards.Bets: 20. Collects: 0. Loses: 20.
*Player glenmawr70 shows: Full House (3/5) [3c 5s]. Bets: 17432. Collects: 34999. Wins: 17567.
Player Ten5pirit does not show cards.Bets: 0. Collects: 0. Wins: 0.
Player sloppydrnkpshngbttns does not show cards.Bets: 0. Collects: 0. Wins: 0.
Player BigUnit14 does not show cards.Bets: 115. Collects: 0. Loses: 115.
Player Four2Eight does not show cards.Bets: 0. Collects: 0. Wins: 0.
Player HOGSACK shows: Two pairs. 8s and 3s [10h 8d]. Bets: 17432. Collects: 0. Loses: 17432.


Why call pre with 53?  Don't know.  Okay, I do know, I was on tilt.  Then, I flop a 5, and he bets a sizable bet on the flop, and I call with bottom pair.  The turn obviously gives me a few pairs, but that's by no means the nuts and I check, he goes all in, and without hesitation I call.  

The call was not built on any knowledge or read.  Just tilt.  Granted, it's probably a well hidden two pair, but that's besides the point.  

I'm still in this tournament as we speak, and I just called a 5x raise with J2 suited.  I'm not off tilt.  I'm going to leave this up, and talk about a few more hands.  What I'm really trying to do, I think, is write enough to where some part of my brain reaches through and suppresses the tilt.  

Tilt has absolutely controlled by poker game from the beginning in January 2005.  My entire poker playing can be described as a fight against tilt.  

And, why?  What pisses me off so much about the game, yet allows me to keep on playing?  Some days, and sometimes months at a time, I'm completely fine, focused, winning, semi-profitable.  But, it all goes away with tilt.  

I think my main problem is that I think people are disrespecting me at the table.  They're not.  But, I get that in my head.  

Back to the game...I nosedived $60 of my roll.  3 buy ins...out of completely and utter tilt.  I realize, some have done worse.  

So, I quit that tournament, and decided to do something stupider than that...play 1/2 NLHE cash.  I can't tell you how stupid this is.  I am absolutely HORRIBLE at cash games in every way possible.  This can only end badly, so I'll actually report on it as I'm in the middle of it.  

So,like usual in cash, I go up big early, and stay because I think I have to.  I went, on one hand, from $200 to 350, and instead of getting out because 100% of the time, my stack completely dwindles, I stay in, and go down to like $260.  I'm okay with that though because I got in wanting to make $60.  I go up a little, to $300, and I should leave, now I'm down to $290.  I need to get out soon because I really want the $60 that I lost in tournaments, and if I just leave now, I'm even, actually up for the day, and I can regroup.  Nope, I get 88, and decide to keep playing.  

Ok...that part of my head came through a little, and said, you're up for the day, get out, you've played hands, you'll be okay!  And, I got out.  I shouldn't have been there in the first place.  

So, on a tilty AS FUCK day, I managed to be up a little.  Now I just need to figure out how to get back to a regular mindset.